A little bit about us...

My husband and I have been married for 6 years. We have a very energetic 4-1/2 year old who is getting so big with every day that passes. I work full time and run a part time business which I am sure most have heard of Bitty Bloomin' Bowtique (http://www.bittybloominbowtique.com/) My husband also works full time or more like ALL THE TIME, his hours are crazy and he works hard. 


It just amazes me that almost 5 years ago she was born a true miracle! I was induced and during the induction while given my epidural they turned my heartbeat monitor off. Jaden was not breathing when she was born. They had to hook up a breathing machine to her; it was the most horrifying experience I have ever gone through in my life. She truly is our miracle; gift from God if you will. My husband and I have been trying since Jaden was 2 for baby #2; with no luck and testing after testing, needle prick after needle prick we have to go through IVF (invitro) in order to have any more babies. If anyone who reads this blog has not had any trouble or history with infertility it truly is such a heart wrenching exprience. You are torn, you are battered, your emotions ride a roller coaster of feeling sad, happy, angry, mad and hopeless. We are blessed and we know that the gift we received from GOD is a great one. However, we would like to have a bigger family so after a few months of trying to figure out who we were as individuals and parents we have made the decision to go through with the IVF. And for some the feeling of wanting more and it not working is such a hard pill to swallow; especially when you don't know why or how this has happened to you.


So here we are....ready to start and just days from this all taking place. I am nervous, scared and anxious. I worry with the cost of this all, if the end result will be what we have wanted for so long, I worry about what it will be like, I worry of losing a baby in between the process. It is going to be grueling but my AMAZING husband who has been their since the beginning and has been awesome so I have not doubts he will be such a huge help with this entire process. So since it feels so much better to talk about these things and more and more I am finding people who are in the same position I am in or are just facing infertility for the first time, I thought I would try my best to document my journey! I have looked for so many places for people to say what it was like or how they overcame the journey and couldn't find exactly what I wanted. I hope you enjoy the ride...

Our lil' princess Jaden 2010