Trying to find the BALANCE

How do you find the balance?

2 Children, a husband, a dog and a part time business on the side! Where does one find balance for all of these things. As I sit on the computer with my 7 week old laying in my lap while I type I can hear my 5-1/2 year old in the background playing school. Both t.v.'s in the living room are going and I can literally hear my husband in the garage yelling at Michigan playing basketball while talking on his cell phone. Oh and the dog is at my feet asleep and my hair accessories are being made. Where is the balance? I laugh!!!!

I spend most days alone with Bronx while Jaden and Gary are at school and work. Our time together is rushed, he sleeps, eats; we nap (if I am lucky) and I shower (if I am lucky)! Dinner is at 5 and then it is homework time, bath time, reading and before I know it my husband is sound asleep on the couch and the clock hasn't even hit 8. There I stand in the kitchen, with Bronx in my arms; pacing no less because he and I are the only two awake in the house and I want to make sure he is quiet for the other 2 sleeping angels.

Our days and nights mesh together and before I know it April is here and my daughter is about to graduate from Kindergarten! I feel like a great wife, wonderful mother and yet I still try and perfect myself to make sure I haven't left anyone out and everyone is getting equal attention. However, my perfect demise doesn't seem to become my reality! Each evening as I sit flipping through the channels trying to find something to occupy Bronx and I while it is 2 a.m. I wonder if I spent enough time with my 5 year old and if I said good night to my husband and sealed it with a kiss.

Even if it is five minutes with my daughter while she plays school and I am her assistant, I have done my job as a mother to balance my time. Even if I said, "hi" to my husband as he walked in the door and gave him a kiss I have done my job as a wife to balance my time. While most of my time and energy is directed towards Bronx because he is so little taking some time out to put him down when he is sleeping and have a conversation with my husband or play with my daughter I have found the balance. I can't believe I don't even have time to be cranky either :)